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Anyone? Nobody?

Back in the 8th grade, my English teacher used to give us daily task. One of the task is the listening section where she'll gave a form of paper contains with lyrics from random song and with some blank space on it. We have listen to the song and fill the blank part of the song. I vividly remember that this was one of my favorite subject and I still keep the bundle of paper from back then.

Well, one of the song that my teacher gave us to solve is from Karen Young - Nobody's Child. Back then, I have no clue about the meaning of this song and just humming as the song played. Now after knowing the meaning of the song (which quiet sorrow), I'm kinda feel sorry for the old me who used to singing this song happily and with no concern at al.


At the age of growing up, I began to face many problems in life: starting from the difficulty of finding a job, the difficulty of adjusting to new things but what must be done to survive, rearranging the hearts and minds that have been heavily contaminated. Trying to be able to restrain myself from getting off track, limit myself not to bother other people, and stay sane in the midst of the trials that are currently approaching. Is it difficult? Of course. Especially after I decided to try to live alone, away from my parents. Too many things happen suddenly and without any prior warning. There is no time for preparation or guidance to deal with this beforehand. Feelings that no one wants me and the abilities I have had are in vain, feelings that I can't do without help from insiders, feelings that I can't be better than the previous version of myself, feelings of wanting to give up and give in to circumstances.

It's not that I didn't try, it's just that from the past, I've tried for years but the result is still the same. It was as if the "don't give him a chance" cross was plastered across my face. Well idk, hopefully some good news and things happen to me soon because I'm so close to giving up and going back to my old life.

May God always give us health and happiness wherever and whenever we are.


♥g

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